A Perfect Day is accepting there are no perfect days,
While there may be a flaw, a blemish upon the face,
There is the joy of lipstick,
A pop of color giving life to an old soul,
An iridescent smile accepting the stale reheated coffee, of which
Faded red lipstick stains still clutch on to old coffee mugs,
While the bittersweet memories remain intact,
An outlook has changed,
Despite being in bed tossing and turning the night before,
You spend your morning in gratitude,
Until you allow yourself to seize the day and run into life,
Allow yourself to not let your inner melodrama to bring you down,
You inhale the air of life, and exhale the negativity,
A perfect day is not allowing the bad dreams in your body
To dictate your awakened state of reality,
 
I find the best moments in a perfect day to be full of laughter,
Laughter and having a sense of humor helps provide sunlight
To a darkened room, I find that my perfect day is where my sister
And I laugh and giggle like two partners in crime,
My perfect day is filled with moments of calm and piece,
It is not just a perfect day, but a days worth of memories,
That happily sit with me,
I find that there are perfect moments in the utter realms of destruction,
Opportunities to make something broken stir alive again,
 
My perfect day is where I begin with a fresh mindset,
An early morning walk with the dog,
I allow my perfect day to not be a pity party,
But a day of forgiveness and healing,
A perfect day is flooding the darkness with pure light,
And not allowing the burnt stale coffee to foul my mood,
 
For in my perfect day I am freeing myself from what brings me down.

A self-inflicting cycle perpetuated by

A cycle

A generational trauma passed on by

A cycle

A repetition of patterns not noticed by

A cycle

A blind eye on poor behavior caused by

A cycle

A need to heal and break the patterns caused by

A cycle

A slip on words dissociated in a traumatic moment by

A cycle

A combination of fight, flight, freeze, fawn caused by

A cycle

A history that needs to be learned and understood to prevent

A cycle

A poem that will one day encourage others to break

A cycle

A reason to show yourself the utmost respect is from

A cycle

A lack of understanding yourself for being trapped in

A cycle

As I learn myself, I realize that I deserve the utmost respect after being caught in,

A cycle

A need to respect myself to not be caught in,
A cycle.

Opportunities in the world missed from fear,
A foe I know too well.
It reminds me of why I stay up all night,
Scrolling and scrolling,
At the lives of others,
The blue light in the background putting me to sleep.

I want change in the world where I am not dreaming someone else’s story,
Where memories aren’t digital and photos are taken with cameras,
Images I can hold in my hands and cherish in my heart.
Rather, a tangible memory at the hands, like a beloved book I can turn the pages to a time I once loved.

I want a world where it is safe to love, no more heart breaks or lack thereof, because
If you love yourself, you can survive a heartbreak.

A world where you have a story to say how you met your significant other.
And not just on an app, which is fine, fate has its tale.
But I want a world where there is change in how we speak with one another.
And by speak, I mean actually speak not just through hands on a touchscreen.

I’d like to see thought put into the words spoken to one another,
Where time is taken less for granted.
And where communication has improved,
To the point you know if you’ll never hear back from a love interest,
Because you communicated your disinterest or shared your feelings.

I want you to tell me how you feel
Without fear of a disappearing act.

I want change in this world where we learn how to deal with difficult feelings.
And not push them to the side like that message left unsent,
Discarded love letters on the side of the road.
I want encouragement to say hi to someone new, less social anxiety.

I want change in the world where you can toss your social anxiety to the side,
Where fear is faced instead of avoiding, change.
I want a world with less fear because it prevents you from talking to your neighbor.
Not only that, but I want to live my daily life in peace.

I know it is daunting to want world peace,
But there can be world peace in my internal world.

In my peaceful internal world, I am basking in the grass with no shoes on,
And dancing to the music of my soul, the change I want to see where time
Stops still. Being able to take in the moment, no guilt for a silent stillness and
Enjoying a moment, to be fully present in the moment. A mind focused at one task
At a time, I want to be able to live life with only one job on my mind.

I find that fear and change go hand in hand.
There is comfort in staying the same and I want a world where change is embraced.
And I want time to stop still with a pause in the moment at night, returning to
Simpler times, phone out of sight, dreaming my own dreams.