A lot of you I’ve introduced myself as Chana but today you will know me formally, as Chanaly.
You see Chana was so easily digestible,
She was nice and to the point
Different but acceptable
Not for my lips or yours to pronounce
But to read off a dock, is admissible.
A couple of hiccups here and there but nonetheless, a spectacle.
The awkwardness of a hand raised to correct, but forgettable.
But Chanaly brought that fire, that sound of culture to the table.
That rice and beans.
The type of sound you hear when you eat meat, my mom said perfect.
That sound was me.
It was read like a poem
The way the mouth parts to emphasize the vowels
And create the flow of
A name from my parent’s name
Who celebrated their unison by having me
Now it’s a reminder of once was
What I’ve hidden in insecurity
I now stand tall in awe of my uniqueness
In that, I am one and nothing
I am not a shortcut or a silent nod
As a man tries an accent he’s never done it before.
I am not Chanel or an SH,
Or whatever name you switch out for
To make yourself feel comfortable
While I shrug off the embarrassment
Because you went off on a whim
Instead of asking
Because your assumption log
Gave away your mindset
That I’m not important enough iyf
To be mentioned
Like the thousand of names before me
That was too hard to pronounce
So you gave them a John or a Smith
And left them with no ounce
Of identity and pride,
To make it easy for your mouth
Well I’m not easy or shy
So you will say my name right.
Chanaly is such a great name! And you clearly carry it with so much swagger. What are your parents’ names? I love creativity. My parents were lazy with me “Lauren.” I love your confidence. Thank you for sharing this piece! <3 Lauren
“What I’ve hidden in insecurity
I now stand tall in awe of my uniqueness”
This piece was powerful and full of realness!! I appreciate your for standing on direct business within this piece. It seems to be a perfect way to represent your repsect and make sure you show up for yourself as well. Thank you so very much for sharing!! This is another p…read more
Hi, Chanaly. Aiša here. Thank you so much for sharing about your name. I love how passionately you speak on the subject. What’s more to love is that when asked to think on why you deserve the utmost respect, you turned to your name! I see your poem as both an act of self-love and self-advocacy. I can certainly relate to all the unwanted…read more
I believe that my writing will save me.
From an everlasting longing of acceptance and despair that awaits when I’m alone. To the doubts that curl in my mind when life erupts a quiet evening. This year, my writing will be light and full of energy.
It will thank the sun for the vitamin d and the sky for its shades of blue. I will walk in the morning to feel my body stretch and move to each step. In 2023, I will begin to accept myself.
I will kiss every wrinkle and love every stretch that leaves a mark. I will recognize my longing for acceptance and message my therapist instead. I will process my emotions, through journaling and acknowledge that they exist. In January, my body will not define me.
I will turn every mirror that reflects only insecurities and not my inner beauty. I will give my body the nutrients it needs to process energy, not fat as a result. I wont seek for unrealistic results that jeapordize my healthy mindset. For the rest of the year, I will give myself credit.
I won’t compare my timeline to someone ele’s achievements. My process is an achievement.
My presence is unique and endearing.
I believe that my writing has saved me.
From an everlasting moment that was held for too long.
Too the doubts that are no longer welcomed in my mind of rest. I am accepting of change.
This is the year to do so.
Chanaly, I love this. Writing definitely saved me too! Writing lets us release all of our thoughts and makes everything we are feeling feel less heavy. This year is your year. Your confidence is going to grow – let it grow. Leave the negativity in the past. You are beautiful and your writing just shows me you, most importantly, have a beautiful…read more
Chanaly whether you’re writing poetry, fiction, or nonfiction – you can do this. I believe in the power of writing. You can use it to find yourself again, to let yourself feel and be whoever you want to be. Your writing will lead others to do that too and that’s the way your light will shine.
Thank you, Sel! It’s been a journey through self-reflection that your wants and needs can be fulfilled on your own and not be suppressed by another. Love language to me is understanding your partner.
Thank you for your kind words! My first piece, ” love language” was inspired by events that questioned my worth as an individual and also a potential partner. Sometimes, writing your desires down helps you realize that you shouldn’t rely on anyone else.
My love language is not overbearing. Its reassurance.
It’s the effort of learning my favorite coffee order and holding hands as you drive. You bring your hand close on my worst day and bury it beneath my back. You vouch for personal time on the couch and watch comedy sitcoms for hours. I don’t ask to be seen, you want my attention.
To be in a partnership, to be respected as part of the home and a woman.
My love langauge symbolizes my temple, the desire to build security.
My love language is not overbearing, its reassurance.
I deserve every part o it.
Awww I love this. You do deserve every bit of it. Keep your standards high. Stay true to yourself and never ever ever settle in love or in life. xo. Thanks for sharing! <3 Lauren
Thank you for your kind words! My first piece, ” love language” was inspired by events that questioned my worth as an individual and also a potential partner. Sometimes, writing your desires down helps you realize that you shouldn’t rely on anyone else.
I love this piece. “Your love language is not overbearing. It’s reassurance”. Of course you deserve this! And Yes you’ll manifest this certainly. So cheers we love to see it!
Thank you, Sel! It’s been a journey through self-reflection that your wants and needs can be fulfilled on your own and not be suppressed by another. Love language to me is understanding your partner.
Dear Chanaly,
Thank you for sharing your very thoughtful words. I enjoyed them immensely. Keep understanding your partner with an open heart and good communication. That is what love is all about!
This is so great. I know a lot of And I love that yours is reassurance because a lot of people don’t really give people reassurance especially if the person has been through so much things were they lost trust in other people to where it probably affects their future relationships. But I think reinsurance is a Key love language that everyone s…read more
Thank you for sharing! As a woman who’s experienced a world that feels reassurance is clingy, I resonate with this. You have a beautiful soul and a beautiful soul deserves nothing less than this. Never settle and know your worth. Sending good energy your way.