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brayaweaks submitted a contest entry to Write a poem or a letter to yourself about your goals for the new year 1 years, 1 months ago
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the two holes in my face
where my eyes used to be
have begun to spread ––
my remaining soul begins to leak
and I start to smell the reek.what reeks I cannot have;
what feels I do not own;
what sings I cannot reach;
i am not my own.it smells of burnt lust and old fuzz
i start to cough but nothing evades
there’s nothing left of me to free
there’s nothing left of me that’s me.//
the clock turns twelve
i have my eye drops that I no longer need;
so the eye drops, they seem to fall asleep
the mirror reflects no light; no life
the shower shivers; it hates itself
the tv flickers; a bright baby blue
(or maybe crimson red)i see the Sea in the hue
or do I see my eyes?
(they used to be bright baby blue too)//
this dessert you feed me
oh how it eats me;
not I, that eats it
–– oh no, not I ––
–– oh no, I wouldn’t dare––
it steals the nourishment I have
it takes
and takes and takes and takes
(this Desert is trapping)
there is wind in my soul
and this fine slender sand makes me cough;
but still, I try to eat it.
it’s the only thing I have.
(this Desert is trapping)you hold my life as an hourglass with slender sand.
your white knuckles withered, strangling my glass
(trapping my Desert)
so
there is no me;
there is no time that is mine
(time isn’t yours, but you hold it still)
(sight isn’t either, but you carry mine still).//
Oh look!
The Sea sees me; and I see it too
The lighthouse blinds me; I fall.
The esoteric night sky that they call the Sea
Oh how it eats me!
It’s royal blue encases all my crevasses
While the whales feed me to the plankton
I am not what is not me;
But I am just as much food, as food is me.Oh, but no!
I have been eaten, but have given nothing;
My life as a sacrifice
Is like a lamb without meat;
My bones are brittle,
My heartbeat weak,
But my diaphragm that’s ripped out,
It is still singing!Oh, It starts raining!
What a wonderful sight to see
The rain joins the water; so the rain joins me
Oh new life!
Oh how bright!The rain seeps through, I am renewed!
The two holes in my face have been filled by the
Sand of the Sea
tears of God
And the resilience of
Me.//
I didn’t find my eyes;
The Earth made another pair for me.I didn’t get my time;
I made time get me.I didn’t reject the food, but ate it;
As food will no longer eat me.//
my bones form together;
My flesh is flesh no more;
my skin finally breathes;
My brain is back in place;
my back is back up right;Oh what a wonderful day;
oh what a wonderful night!oh how the clouds blessed me
this new year.
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Aww Braya, this is super creative and interesting. And you are right, you are so blessed. Thank you for sharing this poem and thank you for being a part pf The Unsealed family.
Lauren
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Braya, your letter is so strong and well-written. I wish I could write like this! Keep up the great work! Loved your poem it’s so deep! Amazing Job!
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